I can honestly say I have been single for a while now, don't get me wrong there have been boys just not long term ones. It appears I have developed the ability to be attracted to the ones who come with a warning notice which generally reads "Its not you its me, I'm just not looking for a relationship". I should make it clear I don't go looking for these ones they some how find me, lead me on for a couple of weeks then break out the immortal saying "I think we need to talk".
Now don't get me wrong I am not saying that being single is a bad thing, I have a lot of amazing things in my life right now. I have recently moved house into an amazing apartment, I have an amazing job which may be offering the prospect of promotion, I have amazing friends and a totally amazing family. There is nothing in my life that I have to complain about. I am not looking for love, a relationship or even the no strings attached but should the opportunity present itself I would not be running in the wrong direction from the right guy. I am assured by friends and Hollywood that he is out there, it seems to me that he is either hiding or he just hasn't realised he is looking for me!
So imagine my joy and possibly even delight when after returning home last Friday night after a fab evening with Miss Emily Green and her wonderful family and friends I discover a brief private facebook message from a boy!! Now this message certainly wasn't a long love note or even the proposition of a date it was one word but it made me smile. As I was under the influence I decided, as I am sure every girl would, to reply in just as much a cheeky manner. I then preceded to turn my phone to silent and hit the hay thinking no more about it.
Saturday morning arrived and on awaking suddenly remembered the message from the previous night. I grabbed my phone with mild anticipation and wariness to find there was a reply. How I refrained from whooping I will never know, but I did. Again the message was brief but the message was there none the less. A reply was sent from me and I went about my business of arranging breakfast, no mean feat with a hangover on the go. To cut what could be a rather long and predictable story short these messages continued for the morning and into the afternoon.
Then they stopped..............I had by this time thought, wow maybe out of the blue and totally unexpectedly this boy likes me, is interested may even ask me out. I will admit the following thoughts had by this point crossed my mind:
1) He messaged me after the gig
2) He would have had to look me up
3) That would mean he was thinking of me after the gig
4) He replied to my message on Saturday
Typical girly thoughts which if I am honest I am not a fan of, but as it is not often a boy goes out of their way to contact me it was kind of inevitable it would happen.
Well after about 2pm (I think) on Saturday there was no further communication all weekend, or Monday or Tuesday. So against my usual philosophy on Wednesday I sent him a quick but again brief private message on Fb, on the basis that if he didn't reply I could put the whole thing behind me. To my shock and surprise 5 mins later I got a reply, there were a few exchanged back and forth until I felt bad that he was only replying because he didn't want to be rude (he seems to be a genuinely nice guy you see) so I said good night.
Needless to say I have not heard from him again and I really don't want to push it. My general theory to all this (and I am no expert I can assure you) is just play it cool, there is no point crying or nagging or worse both it will never get you what you want. This may be the wrong approach, not going after your goals is a sure way to watch them slip away unattained, but why put him off before he even gets a chance to know you.
So over this weekend I have been giving it some thought and have come to this conclusion, Hollywood is right!! If he isn't contacting you, HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!!
Which means I am back to the drawing board and putting all of this behind me once again and going back to being single and not thinking about boys. But just so we are clear I am not without love in my life, as previously stated I have amazing family and friends by my side every day!!
So I say:
Dance like no one is watching
Laugh at least once everyday
Love like there is no tomorrow
And Live life to the full as you never know what is waiting round that next corner (in my case it may even be a boy!!
xoxo
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